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Breaking Through Resistance
The Power of Our Minds and What I learned Through Befriending Pain
Where you are right now is giving you exactly the information that you need to evolve.
Let’s talk about uncomfortable feelings and the beauty of how you can use them as sacred fuel.
My healing journey.
20 years ago I was numb to feelings. I grew up in a home with addiction, dysfunction, and abuse and learned to not feel or speak; I learned to keep out of the way. Feelings were not safe to express or feel in my family and were never discussed or talked about. And so I found myself in this strange and unusual hell in my twenties where there was SO much coming up and I had no idea what I was feeling, or how to manage it. It was then that I began a journey of seeking to understand myself and what the fuck was going on. This was the beginning of my healing journey.
Along the way I began to unpack trauma in my body through many different healing modalities which led me to where I am today, coaching others through this process.
Let’s talk about pain.
I was feeling resistance recently and was reminded of a time in my life when I was feeling deeply resistant to what was going on in my life.
In 2014, physical pain taught me more about my mind and the power of my mind than anything else. It also led to a quantum leap in my healing. I took a fall and my sciatic nerve locked up. My whole life changed. At that time I was tending bar in a high-end wine bar and building an online business. Suddenly I had to take a leave of absence from work because I couldn’t walk for four months. I couldn’t even sleep in my bed; it was too painful to get up into it.
I slept on an air mattress for four months. I couldn’t drive. I would get rides to physical therapy, the chiropractor, myofascial release, acupuncture, every single modality that I could. I refused to get surgery. I told myself I would overcome this holistically. I charged up my credit cards for holistic ways of healing myself since insurance doesn’t cover those things. The western medicine doctors used language that didn’t sit well with me. Words like ‘fuse’, and ‘surgery’, and ‘long recovery time’. I opted out. I’m not saying this is what one should do but it was what felt…
